of
trouble.”(我这阵子会去铁狼营那边,不会回来。明天会有仓库的女人过来房间打扫,记住别说话。如果让这里的人知道你们是美国人,会很麻烦。)
说完,他便直接打开门走了出去,没有再多说一句话。
房门「砰」的一声关上,房间里只剩下克蕾儿和吉儿两人。
房间里安静了很久。
吉儿盯着紧闭的房门看了半晌,忽然轻轻地叹了口气,转身走到沙发边坐下。她低着头,双手抱着自己的膝盖,声音有些疲惫地开口:“claire…
am
really
that
selfish?”(克蕾儿……我是不是真的很自私?)
克蕾儿愣了一下,走到她身边坐下,轻声问道:“why
would
you
say
that?”(为什么这么说?)
吉儿苦笑了一声,眼神有些空洞地望着地板,低声说道:“he
was
right…
kept
thinking
about
how
didn’t
want
to
be
touched
by
those
men.
but
never
once
thought
about
those
women
who
have
to
go
through
the
same
thing
every
single
day.
told
myself
was
enduring
it
with
dignity…
but
in
the
end,
was
just
protecting
my
own
pride.”(他说得没错……我一直只想着自己不想被那些男人碰,却从来没有想过,那些女人每天都得承受同样的事情。我告诉自己是在有尊严地忍受……但其实,我只是想保护自己的自尊而已。)
她说到这里,声音越来越低,带着明显的自嘲:“i’ve
always
believed
was
different
from
them…
that
was
stronger.
but
the
truth
is…
was
just
luckier.
because
met
you,
and
because
he
decided
to
bring
me
back.
if
he
hadn’t…
would’ve
be
exactly
like
them.”(我一直以为自己跟她们不一样,认为自己更坚强。但其实……我只是比较幸运而已。因为我遇见了你,也因为他决定把我带回来。如果他没有这么做……我早就跟她们一样了。)
吉儿把脸埋进膝盖之间,声音闷闷地传来:“i
feel
sick…
i’ve
been
so
full
of
myself
this
whole
time.”(我觉得好噁心……我一直都太自以为是了。)
克蕾儿轻轻伸手,抱住了她的肩膀,没有说话,只是静静地陪着她。